I'm still waiting for ei, and I now have no internet yet again, so i figured, heeeey, there's something to write about. Or maybe not, I dunno, I really don't have anything to say, but since I'm at a computer I figured, hmmmm, bored, might aswell write again. I've actually been doing more writing than usual. More so in my journal (yes, a real PAPER journal). I'm not quite sure when the last time I updated an online journal was.

So today is Thanksgiving here in Canada. We did the turkey thing yesterday, but we were supposed to have dinner with my grandad tonight (roast...i don't eat roast, but that's ok). Apparently he is feeling ill and depressed, which worries me. I think he's been a little sad since my grandma died. Always seems the men are more lost without the women than the women are without the men. I don't know how that works. Scott's grandma and mine have both gone on for at least 10 years after...and they're still going. Maybe it's just those two cases, I don't know. Human nature has always been a little odd to me.

Broke and wanting a hoot or a line or a something. I just want something. I know, I should be thanking ... someone, that I'm still alive and that i have family around me who care so much about me, and friends, etc, but there's still that part of me that is selfish and wants the things I don't need at all. I only ever really want these things when life sucks, and life doesn't even suck that much. Scott and I are getting along relatively well considering the circumstances. I think we've both grown (in some places) quite a bit. Always room for improvement though, and we're nowhere near done changing. I don't think we ever will be. But if we're going to stay together, there are definetly behavioural issues we'll have to work out.

But this is a stream, not a sappy place to talk about all this touchy feely shit. Blah. I guess I'm done, I don't know what else I can say at this point.