I am silently waiting for a distraction.  This day is going so incredibly slow.  No one's phoning, I have no plans, and no one's home.  Go me.  Bleh.  It's days like this that make me depressed.  And it doesn't help that it's been raining all day.  It's all grey and what not.  I shouldn't have my lamp on until about 7:30pm, but it's been on since 3pm.  Bleh.  And why won't anyone phone me back?  Who goes out in this weather?  Especially all my friends that have no cars.  What the hell.  Yeah, I guess I'm lonely and wanting to talk to someone.  I don't even have anyone to e-mail back because I already did all that today.  No one is chatting...no one is anywhere.  Where have all the flowers gone?

    They've gone to get smokes, which is where I'm going, mind you, I only have to go as far as my kitchen...and voila...my manditory cigarette dangling from my lips. What could be better?  Well a lot could be better.  I could not be smoking at all...but you know, I don't think I'd like that.  I mean, I hate the smell and all, but I actually enjoy doing it.  I can't explain what I enjoy about it, but I do enjoy it.  Even if it does have all those nasty side affects.  NASTY.  But oh well.  Just wait until I get pregnant.  I'll be quiting.  Right away.  But we just won't talk about pregnancy right now, because that's not going to be happening for a long time.

    Never order food when you plan on writing a stream.  I've lost my train of thought.  And I don't know how long the poor girl was standing outside my door, because I really wasn't paying attention.  Whoops.  Oh well.  It's all good.  Even if I don't know what I was talking about.  I'm all buzzed out too, so it makes it even harder to concentrate.  Bleh.  I'm sure she knew I was stoned too.  The chick at my door I mean.  See, I'm say stuff and not explaining what I mean.  I assume you all know what I'm talking about.  I shouldn't do that.

    I miss Warren.  He was my bestus male bud.  And now he's gone and won't talk to me or anyone else for that matter.  It really sucks.  But since none of you know him, it's kinda hard for me to go on about that because it just won't make sense.  Teal and Purple.  That's all I have to say.  :)