Well...we've come to a new bridge in my life.  I've never been fired before.  And even though it was totally my fault, I'm still really upset over it.  More so at myself.  It's that whole wallowing in self-pity thing.  It's stupid, I was totally expecting it and everything, but still.  I don't know.  I can't believe I let such a kick ass job get away from me.  I'm an idiot, what can I say?  If only I wasn't so...so what?  I don't know.  I don't know why I can't get up in the morning.  It's crazy.  I'm doing everything I can to get my ass out of bed, and nothing works.  Oh well.  My fault.  I guess.  I don't know.  Can't really be anyone elses fault.

    Pink....what a weird word.  I hate how you can say any word over and over and over in your head, and it just won't sound like a word after awhile.  You'll be like, what kind of a fucked up person thought of this word.  And really, think about it.  Humans are incredible things.  We built computers.  How fucked up is that?  Who figured out how to do this?  Why do putting all these things together work?  Electricity baffles me.  Everything does.  Which comes up with the question of whether or not there is a God.  I don't know.  I don't think there's just this, and I don't believe in the big bang theory either.  I don't know what to believe.  I want to believe something though so I wouldn't be so scared shitless of dying.  I don't know.  It's insane.  If there's a maker, who made the fucking maker?!  *visions of some guy with play-doh*

    I'm shaking a lot right now.  I think it's because i'm cold.  I'm going to go find some sweats, be right back...So I went to see Jann Arden last night.  She rules.  I think she is amazingly tallented.  She's so funny too.  I love her.  Awesome stage presance.  If I could sing, I think I would be a lot like her too.  I would talk to the audience so much.  They'd get sick of me.  =)  Jump...this song is cool.  Not the song jump...but this song.  Pumpin'.  It's a club song.  I've only ever heard it at u4ia myself.  I don't know, I could be wrong, they could play this in other bars here, but not that I know of.

    The weather has been so horrible since last Friday night.  When it's not humid and raining, it's freezing cold and windy.  Bleh.  It's still a little humid too.  It's not fun.  Jump....do do do do do...yes, that is seriously what was going through my mind.  Do do do do do 'cause it goes with the beat of the song.  Yes, I'm crazy, I know that you know that, we all KNOW that...but...am I really?  No.  Logical.  It's scattered logic...but it's still logic.  I'm still cold.  You know you're running out of stuff to talk about when you start talking about the weather.  That's so pathetic...I can't believe I've stuped so very low.  Bleh.  Shame on me *smack*.  Sometimes you have to give yourself a good bitch-slapping.  It's good for the soul.  Just don't do it in public, 'cause everyone will think you're on crack.

    Well...I think I'm actually out of stuff to say already.  By the way, if anyone has a program, or a way for me to test my typing speed, could you let me know?  I have to put it on my resume, and I'd like it to be accurate, rather than have me be waaaaaay off.  WAY off.  Jump....