June 4th, 2000, 8:05pm

    What could be better than a Sunday evening, listening to David Bowie (GOD), and typing on a fucking computer?  Absolutely fuck all.  Must get out of my small little box and go for a walk or something.  This is insane.  Why should I be stuck in front of my computer?  I shouldn't...and it's not as though I'm being forced to do it or anything.  I just don't want to go outside and face the world...when I can stay inside and smoke and be comfortable.  Not that the world is uncomfortable.  Okay, yes it is.  Strangers, giving you dirty looks for no reason.  You don't need that shit.  It's intimidating.  And they know it too...the ones giving you the looks I mean.  I hate people.

    Within reason of course.  I don't hate all people.  If I did, I wouldn't have any friends at all, now would I?  I love my friends to death too.  They all know that.  At least, I'm hoping they all know that.  You...the reader...at least you know that.  So if you see them, let them know.  Um.  Yes, I'm losing my mind.  Drag of smoke....Or I could type and smoke at the same time.  We'll try that and see how it goes I guess.  No we won't, that's just too damn difficult.  Ooh, apparently I'm listening to the vinyl frontier on 92citi fm.  Good classic rock station here in Winnipeg.  I think we have some of the finest radio stations in the world.  At least, from what I've heard of everything else that's out there.  I want to go to Europe.  And I think I would be willing to test my fear of flying for that.  I just want to see how different things are.  I want to understand first hand...not just going on what everyone tells me.  Smoke....

    My back is always itchy.  Always in the same spot.  It teases me.  Conspiracy I tell you.  Because like...yeah, I have no idea what I was going to say.  My streams always seem to go so much better when I'm totally stoned.  I don't know, I'm kind of struggling with my thoughts in this one.  Do you think they're starting to go down hill?  Please say no.  Because then we'll be talking about my thoughts going downhill...and that wouldn't be right.  Then I'd be an insane crack whore.  Goddamn.  That's just not right.  Anyway, I think I'm spent for today.  Take care.