All right.  I know it's been months since I've written anything.  I'm sorry.  Things have been nutz.  Yes.  Nutz.  That's the best word I can think of right now to describe it.  That and I haven't been stoned an content enough to feel like writing.  I'm still not stoned an content, I'm angry and hurt.  And I'm not going to get into why.  If you know me, you already know what's going on.  I'm about ready to kill someone though, and I don't like feeling this way.  It's horrible.  Humanity is a joke.  I really don't believe that there are many truly good people out there anymore.  Just a bunch of immature fucks that get off on making other people miserable.  Now...my friends are excluded in this.  I love them to death.  You reading this might take offence.  And I'm sorry if you do, but if you knew the situation, you might understand where I'm coming from right now.

    As for the rest of my life...well, I guess it's not too horrible really.  Things are shitty, but there's positive somewhere in there.  I'm still alive.  Which I guess is positive.  If I live through all of this, I'll be impressed.  Especially if things keep spiraling downwards.  Yes, my spelling sucks.  What are YOU going to do about it?  Nothing.  That's what I thought.

    If anyone knows of some good music to listen to when you're pissed off, please, e-mail me or sign the guestbook and give me suggestions.  I'm getting tired of listening to "When are you gonna die" twenty times a day.  Not that it's not a good song...it is it is!  I just...mleh.  It makes me even more mad sometimes.  What makes me really mad is that I'm sure the fuckers that disgraced my door (e-mail for details if you wish) are laughing their asses off.  I probably shouldn't be nearly this upset over it, but really...I've had a horrible week.  Absolutly horrible.  And no matter what I do to get over it, something else drags me right back down.  I hate that.  Mleh.  Mleh I say.

    On a positive note, it's my sister's birthday today.  Happy Birthday Lauren!!!  Sorry I couldn't be there today...wherever it was that you were.  I think I'm gonna go phone my mom.  I haven't talked to her yet today.  Take care kidz.